My First Blog!

I've been trying to keep up with blogging for a few years now, and so far I've failed. I'm hoping to change that.

I'm taking this deployment really hard. Dropping Mike off was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and I'm really hoping that we don't ever have to be apart for this long again. Especially since Lily is eventually going to be able to understand what's going on. It'd break my heart to see her cry when her daddy has to leave for six months. I honestly don't think I'd be able to handle it. I come off as if I have a tough exterior, but I'm actually a very emotional person. This deployment has brought a lot of that out of me. You'd think it'd get easier as the days pass, but it seems to get harder.

Lily had her 2 month appointment yesterday and she had to get 3 shots. She screamed bloody murder and I felt so bad, but she didn't cry for long. When we got home, we took a nap and she was fine. But when we woke up, poor baby was in so much pain. She was miserable. Nothing I did would calm her down. I've never heard her cry like that. I sat on the couch holding her and crying because I wanted to take the pain away, but felt so helpless. I finally went and got her so pain/fever relief medicine and she slept for 4 hours straight. She woke up a happy baby and it made me soooo happy to see her be herself again. She has another appointment the day after my birthday, so this time, I'm going to give her some medicine right before we go to it so that she doesn't have to go through all of that again.